2020, we all have something to say about it, mostly negative. When I look at it, I'm grateful for it. I learned a lot about my faith, myself, acceptance, and the road ahead. I was lucky, I had to go to work every day, I never lost anyone close to me from COVID. Even with that, I felt the stress of life like most of you. I was troubled, undecided, scared, and ready to give up.
This summer, I was ready to sell my camera gear and move on to something different. I have very little time to pursue my passion, and more "new" photographers came out, and I felt I couldn't do it. Even if it felt like giving up, throw everything away, I couldn't let that go. Around the same time, a friend of mine contacted me to work on a project. We have been trying to work together for a long time. This time, we managed to do work on that Gothic project. From that time, we worked on other projects. Other people contacted me for similar projects. They have become close to me and living my passion. I will write a post regarding Conceptual Portraits at another time.
My passion had found a new light, I was still struggling with managing my time with work and family. I don't know what made me realize the following, I love my job! I work in healthcare managing all the computer systems, I'm always amazed to see the medical staff, they have been more amazing during COVID. With that in my heart, I decided to pursue my Conceptual Portraits, doing seniors and family pictures, and whatever else comes my way. What I knew before but never accepted is I don't have to do everything in photography. I'm fine doing small weddings for example, but big weddings are something more than just being a photographer. I don't have the time to be a true wedding photographer. This marvelous year in 2020, I finally accepted that. I accepted my limits, I accepted what I loved and decided to pursue that path.
I also enjoy teaching, I redid my classes in early 2020 but only taught one class before COVID showed up. I'm planning and hoping I would get to teach more classes but I also want to push that further and try to do a full day or 2 half days and include workshops with on-site location practice. I have a few plans, a few new partners to make but I'm moving forward that way. It's time to push myself.
Overall, I have enjoyed this year, especially in the last 4 months. I have found peace in accepting who I am with my strength and limitation living my passion. More posts to come describing in more detail the new workshop and the Conceptual Portraits as well as all the business projects I have. Thank you all for supporting me, it has meant a lot, actually even more than you think.